My Republic

im thinking of renaming this blog to my republic

because then y'all would def know it is mine.
i like my space here
i dont like my note space on facebook

facebook hate because people i dont even know but go to my school talk in person about me or whatev and troll my notes and start arguing with me, no wait, not arguing, SHIT TALKING at me. presuming all kinds of things that werent even in what i wrote, and if these people just knew how to think properly it wouldnt be a big deal.

most of the time im accused of something i dont think is fair.

a lot of the time it feels like they are just having out their identity crisis out on me, not actually paying attention to what i said or how i said it, but taking what i say as an impetus to turn it into something they can lecture me on with their specialty.

someone i dont even KNOW just did this to me. after talking down to me coz this person has nothing better to do on a saturday night, i wrote back and corrected her presumptions. but the worst thing is when someone presumes something about you in order to correct what they think is you being presumptuous. MY how that just riles me up, it is so WHO TALK YOU TO THINK i cant even SPLAIN

and in my own defence, i have a job interview tommorrow at 11 so i am taking it easy tonight, rereading the job descript, being responsible. THIS PERSON however, just has nothing better to do, and has nothing better to talk about in her crappy circle of friends than how i have a reputation.

take for 'zample

V.C:
It's condescending to the gay rights movement to even imply that homosexuality is a choice.

And yes, you are condescending. You are completely unable to accept an opinion which isn't your own, and find a way to twist the words of any person with whom you are debating into whatever you want them to mean.

Your reputation precedes you in a glorious way.

ME:

first, i never actually implied that homosexuality was a choice. thats not even in my original article, and its condescending to project your issues onto me and lecture me about them thank you. I DID say that there is a moment when someone realizes themselves as homosexual, and with some women i know, they realize this because they are tired of looking for love with a man, that these men had some kind of consistent essential flaw. thats not saying its a choice at all, choice or no choice i dont weigh in on that. i did, if anything, highlight how heterosexist society is in the sense that women were looking for love perhaps in the wrong place. but ANYWAY

second, if defending my ideas means twisting arguments around, all the while being twisted and misconstrued by someone who actsh' doesnt know me, then i spoze i am a twisted sonofabitch.

but finally

i have a reputation? who is so lonely and boring, who actually talks about me in their meagre group of friends? i dont even know you, thats who. you dont have a reputation because nobody cares what you think.

HONESTLY

PS. i am indebted to my cyberfriend RAYMI, who gets it way worse than i ever do, nobody has yet to anonymously call me fat and spy on my posts every day because of THEIR identity crisis. i love you so much how do you not go off the deepend at people, then again, it helps in realizing how much better you are than everyone else, doesnt it.